Biggest Loser

The Kick in the Butt I Needed.........

So as you all know.. I have been struggling... and failing and trying and failing.... well you know what I mean... Something just isnt working here.. I have started the South Beach Diet again like I mentioned yesterday but was already wanting to give up... Adam Dad is in town and has stayed with us the past couple of days and last night everyone else went to bed and He and I sat outside on the patio... We talked about a lot.... One thing was weight... It was an eye opener....he was not mean... just honest... but like the say sometimes THE TRUTH HURTS...... He was around when i lost all the weight before... I can even word how and what he said last night.. but lets just say.. I was soooo tired this morning and I still go up and walked and then on my 15 minute break at work I walked around my building and then at lunch i have a walk date... I am not going to jinx this but thanks Paul!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a good day
Kristin

First Day South Beach Diet

I have decided to go back to doing the South Beach Diet. I have tried just cutting back counting calories and fat intake.. I need more structure than that... I know this diet works. I did it three years ago and had great success from it... I had a lot going on this weekend so I didnt prepare as much as I wanted to but I have today covered so when I get home tonight I am going to be fixing for the rest of the week... I have been slacking since being sick and I am sorry that I havent even really been doing my blog... I was ashamed.... I will be back in full force... Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I am so ready for it...
Be back tomorrow with a real blog.. lol
Kristin

Failures and Success

I have put on one of my blogs before... I think I found this on Sparkpeople.com but I just think that this is good... And it fits.....
"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."
I have hit a time in my life where I need to make some changes... Not only in my weight loss but everything... Home life.. work life... I am one of those people that if I do not see results I quit, because I do not want to fail, so if I quit then I made that choice so in my eyes I am not failing. In reality I am... I am failing myself.. I am hurting myself... I have said from day one that I am here for a LIFESTYLE change.. lets face it.. I have not done what it takes to accomplish that... I know that I looked back in almost every blog I have written so far... all I see are excuses and the promise to get back on track and not to fail again...They say that to make something a habit..do it for 28 days... Does that really work... I have lost weight in the past and felt like it was a lifestyle change it was WELL over 28 days.... That was 3 years ago and 100 lbs lighter... So what happen... I HAPPENED... I have been told lately that I am very hard on myself and yes that is true.. I put all these things on my shoulders.. I dont want to marry Adam until I lose all the weight.. I am not going to have a baby until I lose all this weight.. I am not going to be happy until I lose all of the weight... Well what can I do ..... Why am I putting all of that pressure on that one little thing... but lets face it ..Its a HUGE problem.. Being OBESE is a big deal.. It affects a lot... Health... happiness..... it can hold you back on a a lot.... but with me putting all these things on hold putting so much pressure on me is this setting myself up for failure..... How can I change my thoughts... because really... a lot of my problems are in my head.. I know that I can lose weight with diet and exercise....but I am not doing it..because my head is telling me I will never do it..... I know I can.... I know that I am going on and on... but that is me.. .always thinking about everything.... but have you noticed that in my title it says failures and success.. I have not yet mentioned anything about success.... It makes you wonder... think about everything that you have done in your life... I have done many things in the past that made me feel good... but why does that matter when I talk to people... I always go straight to the negative...???

SO HERE IT GOES.... Good things that I have done in my life that makes me Happy!

I worked in a group home for year and the guys still keep in touch with me now...
I also worked with mentally challenged adults for about a year and talk to them as well
I am a very caring person and have always helped anyone I can at any point of my life
I love my family no matter how dysfunctional they (we) are...
I have done many walks for charity..
I will help you before I help myself.

So that is just a few... but that last one is not really a good thing.. Yes it is good to help others..but the truth is if you are willing to help yourself in the long run you are hurting others you just do not see it yet....

So everyone that reads this... Lets take time everyday for just ourselves... Yes with the weight loss journey but also something mentally as well... Just get something off of your chest..Something that Adam and I do .. Is High/Low... We always talk everday and say what was the best part of our day (high) what was the worst part of the day (low) and if we could change one thing about it what would it be.... I got this from a movie.. but it has been helping us get things out that before we didnt give ourselves a chance to..
Have a wonderful day...!!!!!!!!

Kristin

Still Sick ... but trying to pull through and Get my motivation back.....

I have been sick since last Monday... and like I said on Friday I used my sickness as a chance to eat whatever I wanted... I tried to tell myself that I was sick and that it didnt matter what I ate... Well, in the back of my head I knew... I was just making it worse on myself... That is ok... I know that I need to stop being so hard on myself... I need to pick myself up and just keep on going... I can do this... I have not given up on myself... I will not give up on myself.... I just need to find my groove.. see what works for me... Something that I am able to stick with for the rest of my life..... I talk to so many people and read so many blogs.. trying to see what works for others... While it is great to get ideas... I realize that I need to worry about myself and what I want to accomplish... I know what I need to do... I just need to do it... I have family coming this weekend and I am not even in the right direction of where I wanted to be.. I do have my family coming in December for Christmas.. I really need to get back into full gear.. I need to stop all of these excuses...I spoke with a girl at my work at lunch today and she is now training for a half marathon... Which puts back into my head.. OMG... I signed up for one in may.. with the shape I am in right now... there is NO way I could do it... So I am promising myself to try my best on my lifestyle change... I want to be ready for this...
What is a goal that you are reaching for and maybe put on the back burner or gave up on..? Lets do this together.. From losing weighting..running... reading more... taking vitamins.. I know that we all have our own goals.. Lets help each other... That is why we are on here...
Well tomorrow I will post my weight and diet goals as well as my exercise.. I have not yet exercised since I have been sick... So for now it is my diet I will be working on...
Have a great day.. and as always thanks for reading my blog...
Kristin

OUT SICK

I will post something tomorrow. I have been MIA since last week. I have been sick and first day back to work so I need to catch up... Lets just say most people that are sick.. dont eat.. WELL NOT ME..... I ATE and ATE and ATE... Glad to be back though...

Holding YOURSELF accountable...

I dont know where to really start with this except for the fact that I SUCK at it.. I have done everything I can to try to hold myself accoutable... I am on sparkpeople.com, I have my own blog 2bhappyandhealthy4ever.blogspot.c0m, I have my sister following it, I have my friends following it and well a contest with 3 people at work.. Normally I am all over competetion I hate to lose.. but see I am noticing that I know that the contest ends December 19th so I am slacking.. I am real bad when Adam is at is Grandmothers house from Wednesday at 1:00 until Saturday at 3:00, that is a lot of alone time and to much time to be bored.. When I am bored I eat.. When I am sad I eat .. When I am stressed I eat... When I am hungry I eat... SO basically when I am ANYTHING I eat.. lol.. Only it isnt funny.... I want to know what more I can do to get myself going... What can I do to change this cycle I am in... I have all of the tools.. I feel like I am on a broken record everything I say I know .. ITS EXCUSES.. why cant I get past this stage I am in... I dont want to live like this anymore.... Bringing back up the Biggest Loser when the doctor showed the contestants there real ages.. OMG... what would mine say.. comparing to the girls on there I would guess I am 50 and I know 50 isnt old.. but when you are 29 and have the insides of a 50 year old..... Wooooooaaaaaaaaa STOP .... I CAN NOT let this happen to me.. I dont even have a baby yet and I have a great boyfriend (husband) someday and I am 29 I want to live... I dont want to die at 70 you know.. So here is the problem I have no clue what to do and where to start or what to do period I want this so bad it hurts... So I asking for help... and I know that you guys try.. I just need something more.. Any ideas let me know... and as always thanks for your help.... One thing I hope that will help me is the fact that I am joing the Y this week.. That should help me not be bored and lonely while he is gone...
Kristin